Saturday, June 23, 2018

Oh, the places you'll go

The last time I was in Spain was in 2006 when I was a junior in college.  Now, twelve years later, I have returned as a "junior" in graduate school.  I am calling myself that because I have one year left in my Ph.D. program.
Puerta de Alcala in Madrid

A typical Spanish breakfast.  I love the coffee.  

My favorite part of the trip so far has been hearing "Despacito" played by an accordionist in front of the Royal Palace.  It was an unexpected moment, and I found the rendition to be very beautiful.  It also made me laugh.   

Tuesday, June 12, 2018

Spain travels

I love traveling.  Let me rephrase that.  I love traveling to Spain.  I haven't been there since 2006, and now I get to return for a conference.  I can't wait to post pictures here.   

Monday, May 22, 2017

Fourth year Ph.D. student

I realized that I haven't updated my blog in a while.

I have just completed my third year as a Ph.D. student at Texas A&M.  All I have left to do is write my dissertation.

More coming soon.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Suddenly I see

I turned thirty in January, so I decided to celebrate by undergoing LASIK surgery.  

Dr. Bobby Maddox did a fantastic job.  He made me feel comfortable before and during the procedure.  I would recommend him to anyone in the Bryan/College Station area.

Being able to see clearly when I wake up every morning?  Priceless.

Thursday, October 16, 2014

Pursuing my Ph.D.

I am so happy I decided to pursue my Ph.D.  I never get tired of learning or teaching.  My brain and my soul need to be nourished constantly.

Where did the time go?  God willing, I will be thirty in January.

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Adventures with my dog Bella

They say you are either a cat or a dog person.  I used to think I was a cat person until I saw an adorable Boston Terrier at the rescue shelter in Amarillo.

All the other dogs barked at me and wanted my attention.  But not Bella (okay, her name was Molly, but I decided to rename her).  Anyway, she did not acknowledge my presence in any way.  I thought, "That's the dog I want!  I want an independent animal!"

Independent?  Psh, yeah right.  She follows me everywhere: to the kitchen, to the living room, to the bathroom, to my bedroom.  She peers out the window when I leave every morning, and it breaks my heart. 

Bella has improved the quality of my life.  I love my dog!

While I typed this blog entry, this is what Bella did.

We love exploring our new home.

We'll cross that bridge when we get to it!

Friday, July 11, 2014

Ph.D. in the fall and journal excerpts

I am excited about starting my Ph.D. in the fall at Texas A&M University, my alma mater.  I have missed the intellectual stimulation, the research, the reading, the writing, and the learning.

I have grown so much and am ready to start a new chapter in my life.  So many experiences and people have contributed to my journey.  I have learned so much about myself and other people.  Just when I think I have it all figured out, life surprises me.  I have decided that I will never have it all figured out.

Writing keeps me sane.  I have decided to post some excerpts from journal entries I have kept these past few years.

Listen to your gut.  Sometimes it whispers while other times it screams.  Mine nags me until I listen to it.
"This doesn't work for me."
"This is not safe."
"This is not good for my health."
"Enough!  No more!"
"Stop it, Angela!"
"Red flag!"
"Really, Angela, really?"

People can say "I love you" and prove otherwise.  Look at the evidence - observe their actions toward you.  Are they manipulative?  Are they "baffled" when you try to establish boundaries?

Surround yourself with people who build you up.  Life is too short to be around people who drain you or tear you down.

Don't let ANYONE pressure you into doing something that you know is wrong.  And ask yourself if that person really is your friend.  Is the friendship give and take?  Or do they take a lot more than you give?  Is your friend always there or only when it's convenient for them?

Don't ever let a significant other say, "It's my way or I end the relationship."  They "love" you?  They are not so significant.  In fact, they are manipulative and self-centered.  I don't care how many poems are written, cards are exchanged, and/or gifts are given.  It's not okay for you to yell at me.  You will not disrespect me.

Recognize signs of emotional abuse.  Never let anyone disrespect or disregard your boundaries.  Do remember, however, to establish your boundaries early on.  Stop making excuses for people who treat you poorly.  Stop thinking that you can transform ANYONE with your immense love.

Commit yourself to people who are committed to your best interests.

My self worth does not come from the opinions of other people.  It comes from God.  Without God, there would be no hope.
"What's wrong with you?"
"You're stupid."

I'm actually brilliant  If you don't like me, you have a real problem.  I'm a phenomenal person, and you should want to know me.

February 4, 2014
Fantasies feel real,
The lies reel us in,
We believe when people quote the lines
of a Hollywood feature.
Our life
becomes part of the film,
rolling on the movie reel
We are left reeling in pain
Thinking the fantasy would make us happy

In the midst of fantasy,
suddenly we awake
And we need what is real.

More coming soon.