Monday, May 22, 2017

Fourth year Ph.D. student

I realized that I haven't updated my blog in a while.

I have just completed my third year as a Ph.D. student at Texas A&M.  All I have left to do is write my dissertation.

More coming soon.

Sunday, March 15, 2015

Suddenly I see

I turned thirty in January, so I decided to celebrate by undergoing LASIK surgery.  

Dr. Bobby Maddox did a fantastic job.  He made me feel comfortable before and during the procedure.  I would recommend him to anyone in the Bryan/College Station area.

Being able to see clearly when I wake up every morning?  Priceless.


Thursday, October 16, 2014

Pursuing my Ph.D.

I am so happy I decided to pursue my Ph.D.  I never get tired of learning or teaching.  My brain and my soul need to be nourished constantly.

Where did the time go?  God willing, I will be thirty in January.


Saturday, August 30, 2014

Adventures with my dog Bella

They say you are either a cat or a dog person.  I used to think I was a cat person until I saw an adorable Boston Terrier at the rescue shelter in Amarillo.

All the other dogs barked at me and wanted my attention.  But not Bella (okay, her name was Molly, but I decided to rename her).  Anyway, she did not acknowledge my presence in any way.  I thought, "That's the dog I want!  I want an independent animal!"

Independent?  Psh, yeah right.  She follows me everywhere: to the kitchen, to the living room, to the bathroom, to my bedroom.  She peers out the window when I leave every morning, and it breaks my heart. 

Bella has improved the quality of my life.  I love my dog!


While I typed this blog entry, this is what Bella did.
 

















We love exploring our new home.



We'll cross that bridge when we get to it!

Friday, July 11, 2014

Ph.D. in the fall and journal excerpts

I am excited about starting my Ph.D. in the fall at Texas A&M University, my alma mater.  I have missed the intellectual stimulation, the research, the reading, the writing, and the learning.

I have grown so much and am ready to start a new chapter in my life.  So many experiences and people have contributed to my journey.  I have learned so much about myself and other people.  Just when I think I have it all figured out, life surprises me.  I have decided that I will never have it all figured out.

Writing keeps me sane.  I have decided to post some excerpts from journal entries I have kept these past few years.

Listen to your gut.  Sometimes it whispers while other times it screams.  Mine nags me until I listen to it.
"This doesn't work for me."
"This is not safe."
"This is not good for my health."
"Enough!  No more!"
"Stop it, Angela!"
"Red flag!"
"Danger!"
"Really, Angela, really?"

People can say "I love you" and prove otherwise.  Look at the evidence - observe their actions toward you.  Are they manipulative?  Are they "baffled" when you try to establish boundaries?

Surround yourself with people who build you up.  Life is too short to be around people who drain you or tear you down.

Don't let ANYONE pressure you into doing something that you know is wrong.  And ask yourself if that person really is your friend.  Is the friendship give and take?  Or do they take a lot more than you give?  Is your friend always there or only when it's convenient for them?

Don't ever let a significant other say, "It's my way or I end the relationship."  They "love" you?  They are not so significant.  In fact, they are manipulative and self-centered.  I don't care how many poems are written, cards are exchanged, and/or gifts are given.  It's not okay for you to yell at me.  You will not disrespect me.

Recognize signs of emotional abuse.  Never let anyone disrespect or disregard your boundaries.  Do remember, however, to establish your boundaries early on.  Stop making excuses for people who treat you poorly.  Stop thinking that you can transform ANYONE with your immense love.

Commit yourself to people who are committed to your best interests.

My self worth does not come from the opinions of other people.  It comes from God.  Without God, there would be no hope.
"What's wrong with you?"
"You're stupid."

I'm actually brilliant  If you don't like me, you have a real problem.  I'm a phenomenal person, and you should want to know me.

February 4, 2014
Fantasies feel real,
The lies reel us in,
We believe when people quote the lines
of a Hollywood feature.
Our life
becomes part of the film,
rolling on the movie reel
We are left reeling in pain
Thinking the fantasy would make us happy

In the midst of fantasy,
suddenly we awake
And we need what is real.
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More coming soon.

Sunday, June 15, 2014

Feliz día de los padres

I love it when my father shares his stories about growing up in Mexico.

Once my dad was cutting pasture, and he didn't notice a plant on which a bees' nest was attached.  Well, he cut the plant.  The bees stung his face to the point that he was deemed unrecognizable by people in his own tiny Mexican village.

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Las avispas -as told by my father


Andaba cortando hierbas para pastura.  En la hierba grande que corté estaba el panal de las avispas. No me fijé y se me echaron encima en la cara todas las avispas.  Todas.  Se me puso la cara como tomate.  Tenía los ojos enterrados.  No podía ni ver casi. 

Estaba pasando por la orilla del rio.  Vi que se estaban bañando Daniel y Artemio.  Me sentía muy triste pasando por allí y me decían, “Oiga, amigo, ¿viene Ud. De Julimes?” pero yo no les contestaba nada.

“¿De dónde eres?  ¿Quién es tu papá?” Artemio me preguntó.

Yo no hablaba para que no me conocieran.

“Como que se parece a Vayo el de Panfilo,” dijo Daniel. Se tiraron un clavado en el río y yo me fui.

No quería que me viera la gente.  Cuando me di cuenta que no me conocían, me dio mucho gusto.

Friday, June 6, 2014

The best gift I have ever received

"We're not the one's who've been teaching Radio - Radio's the one who's been teaching us."  It's been years since I've seen the movie Radio, but that's my favorite line from the movie.

While I was teaching my students, they were teaching me.  They reminded me not to take life so seriously; their vitality influenced me.  I enjoyed supporting them at extracurricular activities and being part of their lives.

At the end of the year, I received a book full of life tips and quotes from Lora and Mackenzie.  I wanted to share this on my blog because it touched my heart.


Priceless.  This one is my favorite, Lora!



I've seen every episode, Mackenzie!

I told my students that one morning when I awoke, I panicked because my arm was asleep.  I thought I was about to have a heart attack, so I googled "signs of a heart attack" and was ready to drive myself to the emergency room or dial 911.   Apparently, I had just slept on my arm, so it was numb.  Oh well.



Thank you, Lora and Mackenzie!  I always wanted a book dedicated to me.  Thanks for making this dream come true!